Baby's gender

I know that almost everyone that I known had wish & shared the same view on our 3rd baby's gender.. They are all hoping it will be a baby boy as my eldest & 2nd child are both girls.

But to me and my hubby, boy or girl is not an issue for us.. The most important thing is that our baby is healthy and free from any physical & mental deformities..

Actually why we care less on our 3rd baby gender is because of the fact that there are so many married couples out there who yearn to hold and hug their own baby but still could not..

There are so many people around our life , be it among my hubby's surrounding and mine too, that are still childless. They are childless not by an option. Some of them have been married for  more than 5 years and still trying to conceive...

With that reason, me & hubby are just thankful to Allah for his precious gifts to us... To tell you the truth, I too was afraid that I would not conceived our 2nd baby as the gap was 4 years from my 1st pregnancy. And even for my 3rd pregnancy, I still had the same fear of not being able to conceive .... Alhamdulillah we are lucky.

No words can describe the feeling a parent can feel when holding & hugging  a child of our own flesh & blood. And no words can describe the longing look of those childless couples wishing to be in our shoes..

With that, any parents should be gratefull and honored to have a child or children of their own..

091011 or 101011 or 111011

Went for my monthly maternity  check-up last Monday..

As  I will be 7 months preggy by end of this month, me & husband asked our gynea on the exact date of birth for our 3rd child... So  it can be either 091011 or 101011 or 111011 or can be any date on that 2nd week of October 2011..

Guess who was  excited upon noticing the dates? Well, my gynea la.... Hubby said that it was  the same response  from my gynea when I delivered my 2nd child on 070809..  I think maybe because she had some patients who had asked to have their babies delivered on nice dates like that...As for us, any dates will do for Allah knows when is the best & right time for our baby to be born into this world..

So our baby is expected to be born  roughly 2 weeks earlier than the actual date if based on the conception date. This I have already anticipated earlier tooo.. Aisyah was delivered 2 weeks earlier too.As for Arissa it was one week earlier.. Thus, our 3rd baby will have the same probability as her sisters too!

As for our 3rd baby gender, our baby is still being shy about it.Our gynea could not confirmed on the baby's sex as our baby is always hiding it... It would be nice if the sex is confirmed  as I want to start preparing the clothes...

Thus, we are assuming our baby is a girl ...

Asthma Attack

Last Tuesday night I got my asthma attack which I have not gotten for almost 5 years . And for once in my life, I fear for the life of little baby inside of me and for my life too..I have no asthma medication with me when it happened as the last attack was 5 years ago.

It all happened when I was having runny nose and constant sneezing at office the whole monday at office & home. Came Tuesday, I was having short of breath .It was ok if just sit down at my office table. But walking to and back from the ladies room will leave me with short of breath . And it got worst on that night .

This happened after I bathe my two girls after we got back from the park. By the time I had finished bathing my eldest daughter ( i bathed the youngest one first) , my breathing was worst. I had to sit down long so that i can breath better and not gasping for air.

I got panic attack & fear for life of the little baby inside of me when while waiting for dearest hubby to come home from work. Arissa had this worry look on her face throughout the whole time when we were eating dinner and waiting for her baba to arrive home. Of course I did explain to her that I was having difficulties of breathing due to my cough & that how i need to move slow when doing things. It think it was weird for her to see me short of  breath and how hard it was for me to breath. Aisyah just nod her head when i said that I was sick.

The only medication I took was a cough mixture. That too I had after consulting my dearest SIL & BIL who are both doctors.Things got a bit better that night but I could not sleep well. I was awake now and then. In fact hubby got worried too when he took my pulse reading. It was fast than normal rate.

So come Wednesday morning, I just told myself I need to see my gynea. Eventhough my breathing has improved but I dont want to feel fear & panic again. Not having medication on my hand is not something I want to go through again.

Unfortunately, my gynea was on leave on Wednesday. So was my gynea's next choice of gynea to be seen if she was unavailable. After consulting my SIL, we decided to visit another chest & respitory specialist at the same hospital who happened to be my SIL & BIL's friend.

The doctor ran a few asthamtic test on me .One of it it was I had to blow through this small tube and see how far I move the pin on top of the tube. I blowed 3 times and the pin did not move much. In the end it was confirmed that I had an asthma attack. Told him too of my asthma history.

I felt better when the doctor put me on the inhaler mask straightaway. Soon I was able to blow and move the pin better than my earlier attempt.

Actually I am supposed to be hospitalised as I need to rest a lot. But the doctor gave me option either to stay home and rest or choose to be warded for  a  few days. No wonder I was asked earlier by him on wether I have a maid at home and how many children I have . At first his questions on this did not make sense to me. But now I know whys

So I am given a 6 days on medical leave. Doctor's advice is to rest a lot. And my next appointment will be on next Monday.

However, i got a scold from my dearest hubby last night. Why? All because I did not rest enough and still busy to cook and attending to the children. I was not supposed to take them to the park that evening. Me feeling a bit better after having my medication, thought it was ok for me to take them there.

But today, I just told myself to really put up my feet. I listened to my body . And yeah I am not that 100% well . I am still short of breath and walking around too much in the house still leave me tired and gasping for air a bit...

Being pregnant for the 3rd time at the age of 36 years old, definitely sing a different song to me..

Baba's girls

I have to say that my two lovely girls are baba's girls definitely.

At the moment my hubby is away on his business trip where the location is popular as one of Thailand's holiday destination. I just could not understand why his company can choose a popular holiday spot like for it's top management seminar...How i wish I could go!!!

Back to my point , my girls are missing their baba tremendously. Aisyah was already asking for her baby , wanting her baba to hold her in his arm, right after we dropped my hubby at the airport. And during the night, just as me & aisyah were lying on bed getting ready for sleep, she would asked where is her baba. And in the morning, the first thing Aisyah would asked me was where is her baba.

Same goes to Arissa. She would asked  me if she can call baba or send sms to his baba. Alhamdulillah, she got to talk her baba and how happy she was.. Another thing that i can sensed how Arissa is missing her baba company is her attitude. There will be moments when she is just clingy and sometimes feeling so sad ...

Which is why I too dont like it that much when my dearest hubby have to be away on his business trip.  Hubby likes  to play with them. Something that i am not good at.. Maybe fathers are like that.

With baba it is play time for the girls. It can be a rough one like father & sons. I called it like wwf wrestling. The girls can punch as hard as they can with their baba. They can even land themselves on top of  their baba. My hubby would always remind them not do this with me as their mama is not as strong as baba! Phew! They play rough like a boy ok!

Sometimes, just as Aisyah was about to doze off  at night, she can just be as fresh and alert the minute she sees her baba entering our bedroom. All of a sudden, a smile will light up at the corner of her tiny mouth. Soon she will be wanting to play with her baba who was just got back from work!

With Arissa, she will choose baba instead of me to put her to sleep. Eventhough I will stay with her first to put her to sleep, in the end, she will always ask for her baba to put her to sleep. hemmmm.. Sometimes how i pity my dearest hubby who is sometimes feeling so tired after coming back from office.  But he always put up with the girls demands... this i salute him most eventhough sometimes i wish he wouldn't.

hemmm..one more day to go..My girls' baba is coming home tomorrow...

100% wean off ?

Is she finally 100% wean off from my breast milk? I presume yes.


Is not that she did not ask from me to latch on or to breastfeed her..She did. But somehow she can accept my explanation of how big girl she is and that she can drink milk from her cup.

This weaning process just happened like that... I had stopped breastfeeding her and feeding her my EBM somewhere last month. And whenever she asked to be breastfed, I gave her the same reasons as above. Of course there were moments when she just want it & sometimes cry too when I refused to breastfeed her..Somehow, Allah is Great. That she can accept my reasons wheneverthese happened. Alhamdulillah.

I know she is missing it still of this special bonding session. In fact I too am missing it. But I had to take my chances of making it happened (wean off) as i am due for labor end on October this year. I just hope i am doing the right thing by weaning her off 3 months soon from the original plan.

My worry now is of her reaction when she sees me breastfeeding her new baby brother/sister. She may be tempted to breastfeed from me as the craving might be there..

Working Pregnant Hijab Woman

Everyone’s know ( do they?) that Jusco is the best place to get affordable price maternity wear. New designs are always being put on the shelves. Thus one need only to visit Jusco now & then to get new maternity design.


And of course there are also Motherclub , Modernmum, MikiMum & other online brand that can accommodate the demands for maternity wear. But when it comes to hijab lady,the task can be a bit harder. Especially to pregnant hijab woman like me who prefers long sleeves rather than short sleeves match with an inner blouse.

I really don’t favor at all the trend of using inner blouse that comes with long sleeves to match with either short sleeves or sleeves blouse/shirt/t-shirt /spaghetti strap blouses.

And being a working woman, it is best to keep your office wardrobe color to plain color only. This is because you can match one colored shirt with various designs of shawls & tudungs. You will have less tudung/shawls options on hand if the fabric of your office wear is flowery, stripes & with motifs.

Sometimes I just wish that there are enough available designs on the market for pregnant hijab working woman like me. I had tried googling for it in the internet and the effort is fruitless.

Maybe I can turn this problem into a marketable business idea!