Wednesday, 21 May 2008

The 2nd time I was away from her

I'm in my lazy mood. Even lazy to go for my bodyattack class. But had to write this thing down in my blog so that Arissa will know what happened when she was 2 years & 10 months old. Also for my own memory when I'm 20 years old from today.

So, I was away for the 2nd time from my daughter. 4 days & 3 nights. From 16-19th May 2008.

My company was having its annual company sport camp. This year was held in Kuantan. I didn't get to go last year as Arissa was still below 2 years old and that I was still exclusively breastfeeding her. Yeah, again I put my child's needs first and foremost.

The 1st time I was away from her was from Mac30th, 2008 to April 1st, 2008. I had to go to Pasir Gudang for company quaterly stocktake.

So how was Lil Arissa when I was away from her?

Hubby told me that on the 1st nite ( this 2nd trip) she woke up crying looking for me. Just a short cry as hubby managed to pacify her. She is used to have me sleeping next to her .And how I still put up with her special request of me having to dukung her when she is at that sleepy mode.

But my phone call on Sunday morning made her cry on the dot. I think she was holding on all the while since day one from missing me. But came the 3rd day I was away from her, I think her defense came all tumbling down. I guessed I said the key words " I miss you !" Again, hubby was right beside her. I felt like crying when I heard hers. But minutes later, I told my self that she will be ok.This was just part and parcel of us being away for the 2nd time.

I'm glad that our decision for hubby & her to stay at SIL's house was the best solution while I was away. There were more than 2 people to keep our lil angel busy. MIL was there,big Khuya Adam was there and SIL too to . My maid told me that Arissa played all day long with Adam almost everday. And there was that kenduri tahlil by Kak Min on Sunday evening to keep them busy.

During my stay in Kuantan, I did call them but limited it to twice a day only. I just dont want to bug Arissa so much.

Yesterday, I took EL as Arissa was down with fever since Monday . Missing me & non-stop of playing got her down with fever I think. Alhamdulillah she is back with her usual self today. But how she had me wrapped around her little fingers yesterday. And how emotional she was too. Crying now & then when she didn't get things her way.

I had these developed photos since her birth that I have not put it inside a proper album.. So yesterday we spent looking at all those photos. At one point , she cried wanting that soon-about-to-give-birth-mommy-lying-on-hospital-bed. She only stopped crying after I told her that that lady was me. Not long after that, she cried telling me that she missed her Baba. To pacify her, I told her to kiss her Baba's photo which she did.

Yesterday also, I was told by her not to kiss her. I like to shower her with inpromtu kisses. So, yesterday I was told off by her. Don't know why she told me not too. And I was to keep quiet when she was busy looking at the photos.

I guess my 2nd time of being away from her affects her in a new different way. I know soon all these things will be common to her..It's just a matter of getting her used to it..

So, Arissa. Mama hope that when you read this in years to come, not only will this be a special memory to you, But also to remind you of the sacrifices that I willingly and continualy will do during your growing up years.


Dot.Dot said...


Its not easy to be away from your child. I dont know whether i can do it or not. Dah laa mommies work 5 times a week from 9-5, leaving the child behind at home. Aidan still cries everytime he sees me go to work. Now Adnan pun dah pandai nak ikut ikut nangis.

Yes. I agree with you. Sacrifice- for your child. Going to work to make more money so that we could provide them with best education best medical treatment, etc etc.

emly2175 said...

Dot: I feel guilty & at loss most of the times when she cries waving me off to work. Susah la bila nangis2 ni.. And when i told hubby about this, he said that she is just a small kid.. And I try very hard to succumb to his views. Hate it when we have to put our emotion aside in times like that.. ;)

Dot.Dot said...

Hubs said the same thing. I refused to listen to him. So i try my very best to leave him when he is in a good mood. Will switch on his fav cartoons and kiss him goodbye. Then i quietly go out. He will be ok for the rest of the day. sebak bila dengan baby nangis.