Ex collegues

My excollegues at my old company are peoples who had seen and been with me for a good and bad 13 years of my working life.

They had seen me as a young single lady.

They had seen and witnessed my three pregnancies.

I bet they did see part of my dating life too..

yes they did as i remember them commenting how io and my hubby would be sending sms during office family trip. I was in my dating years with my hubby back then...

These people are my friends that have touched my life and leave their footprints in it.

Evennow after leaving the office for almost two years, we still keep in touch.

I can still remember Rafi who always give me a lift to lrt station on days that I stayed back after office hours. Sometimes he would give me a lift to my car which was parked behind the office building. I remember telling my hubby how he would wait in his car and only drive off once I am safely inside my car. At that time, I didnt have my own shared car park ..

And its hard to forget Nadia who always buy me nasi lemak and kueh for morning breakfast.  And it was her nasi lemak that I ate on the morning that was the day that i gave birth to my 2nd daughter. How we still laugh at it when it crosses our minds.

And there was Azim who  until now is easily remembered by my dad as the couple ( he and his then Gf now wife)  who visited me after i gave birth to my eldest.  He said I like to perli him sometimes..yeah... it hit him at his nose...my sarcastic remarks..

hmmm.....tonigh these people crosses my mind as one of them are in mekah performing umrah..

actually, we have been pretty closed during that 13 years. So closed that most of us know what had happened within their own family life. And some on personal life too..

Thank you Allah for giving me the wonderful 13 years of my working life...

coz i am a mother n wife

Its 12.25 pm  and my 3 lovelies are past asleep. And i am just done with cooking tomorrow breakfast. A simple mee hoon goreng or mee goreng lekat like what my eldest called it.

I was about to called it a night when this face of my other half came to my mind. Something in the what was painted across his face that made me think that it was best if I cooked the tomorrow breakfast tonight.

This thing about cooking the night before is something normal to me even when I was a working mom back in my old days in KL.

We mothers really put our lovelies' needs first and foremost.

Sometimes it does cross my mind if my children will remember me for the little things and unnoticed things that I do for them.Well its easier and  honestly that we human easy to remember the ugly thinngs that others did to us. Dont we?

Lesson on life No.1

Ada masanya bila saya melihat keluarga org lain, diri sendiri jadi takut dengan ujian dan dugaan yg diberikan oleh Allah saw. 

Kedua ibubapa orang terpelajar dan dihormati. Dan alhamdulillah, hidup yg dulunya sukar sudah dirahmati oleh Nya dengan kesenangan rezeki yg bagus. Bisa makan di resto yg mewah dan belanja eceran di toko2 yg bagus .

Alhamdulillah juga kedua ibubapa  juga sudah berpeluang menunaikan rukun islam yg lima  yg butuh uang yg byk iaitu haji.

Namun bila melihat dugaan yg diberikan oleh Nya utk kedua ibu bapa tadi , diri ini rasa takut dan bimbang.

Dugaan dlm bentuk anak anak yg tidak mampu utk menjadi manusia lebih baik tingkah laku terhadap ahli keluarga yg tua .

Dugaan hebat dlm bentuk anak anak gadis yg tidak tahu etika berpakian yg sopan dan manis . Ada masanya saya yg seorang wanita ini menjadi lebih malu utk berdepan dengan anak anak gadis manis itu yg saya kira  akan lebih manis jika pakaiannya lebih sopan dan manis.

Dugaan dugaan ini la yg membuat diri sendiri risau dan bimbang dgn anak2 sendiri. Sudah pastinya diri merasa bersyukur sebab Allah sudah menunjukan dugaan ini depan mata saya.

Namun yg menjadi kerisauan adalah bagaimana pula dgn keluarga saya sendiri. Mampukah diri yg kerdil ini menghalang dugaan dugaan seperti di atas dr berlaku ke atas anak2 dan keluarga sendiri.

Diri ini hanya mampu berdoa dan terus berdoa kepada Allah yg maha esa dan kaya agar terusan diberikan petunjuk dan hidayahNya dlm membimbing anak2 sendiri dan hidup ini.

Dan berdoa dan terus berdoa agar anak2 ku akan menjadi anak2 yg soleh dan ditetapkan imannya.

Amin. Amin .